It appears, tragically, he took his own life. It's very sad.

"it must be a very dark place, "

Trust me, it is.

The feeling of utter hopelessness, bleak anguish and ineffectiveness cannot be described, a wilderness with despair in every direction.

I was lucky, I was pulled back from the brink.

I feel so desperately sorry for anyone else who didn't have the same breaks.

I hope you have found peace Gary.

Mr Speed might be alive today, if he had talked to his GP. at the first signs of any distress. When I knew I was depressed I talked to my doctor about it. I am alive and well today - 25 years on.

morddwyd

I, too, was lucky enough to escape that same dark space. It was touch and go for a while.